It's been several days that I put " Jianshu" aside. Nothing wanna share from my side. I got this resentment and complaint within me, which is not a good thing for me to build a growth mindset.
I'm whining about new work, but deep down in my heart that I think I'm not good enough. A fixed-mindset person wants a perfection in everything. These days I've been reading a book "Mindset" that gives a hopeful impression of being positive. Take anything as a good chance to improve my ability.
Don't let the expression " what if " to affect you.
What if I am not good enough?
What if I'm losing?
What if people laugh at me?
What if I'm a failure in this business?
You are not growing if you live smoothly without challenges in your life. You gotta try something, then you will know better about yourself.
However, don't be so hard on yourself.
I've not speaking English for several years. Now I'm with a big company, working with people from different cultures. I'm afraid of making stupid mistakes. So what? Life is not always easy. You gotta get over the barriers than mumbling.
Live in the moment. You should never not love yourself because you are the one who loves yourself no matter what happens.
I work at home today, not worrying about my new CEO and my new colleagues. I follow the company's rule that employees can work at home. So? Just do it, don't be afraid of what others think.
Tomorrow I'm gonna have a meeting with a colleague in Manila. Maybe I can't understand her accent or she speaks too quickly. Just join the meeting, be a good listener.
Life is difficult when you think it is. Or life is easy when you think it is as well.
Live in the moment even though you make fool of yourself. You still are you, the unique you.