What I Have Lived For
Bertrand Arthur William Russell
Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life:
the longing for love,
the search for knowledge,
and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind.
These passions, like great winds have blown me hither and thither,
in a wayward course,
over a deep ocean of anguish,
reaching to the very verge of despair.
I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy---ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy.
I have sought it, next because it relieves loneliness---that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss.
I have sought if, finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined.
This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what---at last---I have found.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of men.
I have wished to know why the stars shine.
And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux.
A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.
Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens.
But always pity brought me back to earth.
Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart.
Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a hated burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer.
This has been my life.
I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me.
讀書的時候，有時會看到自己的影子
大概那就是與作者的神交吧
換句話說，作者引起了讀者的共鳴……
從一段文字瞭解一位作者，再更深入的瞭解這位作者
瞭解他的人生，再到了解他的思想
我們會獲得許多啓示
思想導師，我們都有這樣一位導師，儘管、或許我們不曾深刻的意識到
每讀這段文字，都會有一種莫名的激動
並且，得到一股力量
從面向過程，到面向對象，再到面向服務
眼界在開闊，興奮的同時感到自己的渺小
這時的我需要些力量
值得高興的是，我可以從思想導師那裏得到……
SOA是什麼?
Deepen my insight, 我在思考
無意中發現，老師喜歡用自問自答的模式來進行教學
那麼我就不斷來回答這個問題，
在不斷的re-search中
領悟SOA的真諦
領悟知識的真諦
領悟人生的真諦