September 8, Tuesday
Day 3 Before Leaving
Wooden furniture and cream-colored curtains. A great place for self-studying. I ordered a cup of latte and some “white chocolate coffee bean”. The combination of sweet and bitter made it awesome.
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The girls sitting opposite to me were my best friends, Anna and Yvonna. We sat there just like last September, and October, and November and December. I remembered us sitting together by a small office table, talking about college applications. We shared dreams and ideas, we shared anxieties and nightmares.
I remembered a December day. I cried for the whole day because of a rejection letter. I remembered Yvonna stood beside me and held my hands. She was there, just holding my hands. I remembered Anna came by and fondled my hair.
“Don’t cry.”
She repeated. And those were all the words she said to me. I didn’t reply because I was not able to speak. But that was something I would doubtlessly remember forever. I was pretty sure.
September came again. We sat together again.
Is it the last chance to meet? I sat there, opposite to them. I was wondering if one day I could hear the “last-meeting” sound. That’s bad. That’s not a supernatural power. That’s absolutely awful.
Suddenly they burst into laughter because an insect kept flying around their devices. I laughed too. It was funny indeed.
“I’m going to the restroom,” I said, “then I’ll go back home.”
I picked up my earphone. The process of distinguishing left and right became much harder than usual.
I looked around. It was such a pretty place. But when would I be back again? With who?
还是为了记录一下，用中文写一版吧。
9月8日 北京坊
点了杯拿铁，买了一袋白巧克力咖啡豆。甜和苦交融，味道真的格外好。
坐在我对面的两个女孩是Anna和Yvonna。我和她们一起坐在这里，就好像上一个九月，上一个十月，十一月和十二月的我们一样。曾经一起挤在一张小办公桌上聊申请文书的场景还历历在目。分享着一个一个跳出来的点子，一个一个疯狂的想法；度过一个一个焦虑的下午和傍晚，一个一个为截止日期崩溃而不得不翘课的日子……
我还记得12月那天。一封拒信敲醒了我清晨的睡意。随后，我为它哭了一整天。
我趴在桌子上。我没有力气擡起头。也没有办法面对自己的狼狈。但我记得我在某一刻感觉到自己的手被另一双手握住了。是Yvonna。我知道。不用擡头就知道。她就那样站在那里，握着我的手。我记得我感觉到一只手轻轻地抚摸我的头。是Anna。我知道。
“别哭了别哭了......”
Anna只是重复着这么一句。说点什么吧。我对自己说。哪怕是一句谢谢。可我真的没有力气。我没有力气做任何事情，除了回握住Yvonna的手。但从那一刻起我就很确定，这是我这辈子都会记得的温暖。我很确定。
又是一个九月。我们又坐在一起。
今天是最后一次见面吗？我在想，假如有一天我也拥有了能听到“最后一面的声音”的超能力。那根本不是什么超能力。我一点也不想拥有它。
她们突然笑了起来。因为有一只苍蝇死活赶不走。我也笑了。是啊，真的很好玩。
“我去下卫生间，然后我要回家了。”
我拿起我的无线耳机。我从来都没觉得过，分辨左右是这么难的一件事情。
环顾四周。这里真是个很不错的地方。可下次来会是什么时候，和谁呢？