September 8, Tuesday
Day 3 Before Leaving
Wooden furniture and cream-colored curtains. A great place for self-studying. I ordered a cup of latte and some “white chocolate coffee bean”. The combination of sweet and bitter made it awesome.
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The girls sitting opposite to me were my best friends, Anna and Yvonna. We sat there just like last September, and October, and November and December. I remembered us sitting together by a small office table, talking about college applications. We shared dreams and ideas, we shared anxieties and nightmares.
I remembered a December day. I cried for the whole day because of a rejection letter. I remembered Yvonna stood beside me and held my hands. She was there, just holding my hands. I remembered Anna came by and fondled my hair.
“Don’t cry.”
She repeated. And those were all the words she said to me. I didn’t reply because I was not able to speak. But that was something I would doubtlessly remember forever. I was pretty sure.
September came again. We sat together again.
Is it the last chance to meet? I sat there, opposite to them. I was wondering if one day I could hear the “last-meeting” sound. That’s bad. That’s not a supernatural power. That’s absolutely awful.
Suddenly they burst into laughter because an insect kept flying around their devices. I laughed too. It was funny indeed.
“I’m going to the restroom,” I said, “then I’ll go back home.”
I picked up my earphone. The process of distinguishing left and right became much harder than usual.
I looked around. It was such a pretty place. But when would I be back again? With who?
還是爲了記錄一下，用中文寫一版吧。
9月8日 北京坊
點了杯拿鐵，買了一袋白巧克力咖啡豆。甜和苦交融，味道真的格外好。
坐在我對面的兩個女孩是Anna和Yvonna。我和她們一起坐在這裏，就好像上一個九月，上一個十月，十一月和十二月的我們一樣。曾經一起擠在一張小辦公桌上聊申請文書的場景還歷歷在目。分享着一個一個跳出來的點子，一個一個瘋狂的想法；度過一個一個焦慮的下午和傍晚，一個一個爲截止日期崩潰而不得不翹課的日子……
我還記得12月那天。一封拒信敲醒了我清晨的睡意。隨後，我爲它哭了一整天。
我趴在桌子上。我沒有力氣擡起頭。也沒有辦法面對自己的狼狽。但我記得我在某一刻感覺到自己的手被另一雙手握住了。是Yvonna。我知道。不用擡頭就知道。她就那樣站在那裏，握着我的手。我記得我感覺到一隻手輕輕地撫摸我的頭。是Anna。我知道。
“別哭了別哭了......”
Anna只是重複着這麼一句。說點什麼吧。我對自己說。哪怕是一句謝謝。可我真的沒有力氣。我沒有力氣做任何事情，除了回握住Yvonna的手。但從那一刻起我就很確定，這是我這輩子都會記得的溫暖。我很確定。
又是一個九月。我們又坐在一起。
今天是最後一次見面嗎？我在想，假如有一天我也擁有了能聽到“最後一面的聲音”的超能力。那根本不是什麼超能力。我一點也不想擁有它。
她們突然笑了起來。因爲有一隻蒼蠅死活趕不走。我也笑了。是啊，真的很好玩。
“我去下衛生間，然後我要回家了。”
我拿起我的無線耳機。我從來都沒覺得過，分辨左右是這麼難的一件事情。
環顧四周。這裏真是個很不錯的地方。可下次來會是什麼時候，和誰呢？